How Prophetic

The day after I post my resolutions I get hit square in the face with needing to make sure I follow through on one, #2. I had a doctor's appointment and in their routine they make each patient jump on the scale on the way to the private room. I knew I wasn't going to like this number, but I wasn't ready for what it read. I can now officially say I weigh more than I ever have in my lifetime. Not a proud moment. I knew I was slacking off these past 4 months, but I guess I didn't realize to what extent until the last day of the year. These next couple of weeks are going to be crucial in getting back down to where I want and need to be. Want, because I feel like a slug right now and it's not a good feeling. Need, because I know it can't be healthy for me to be up this high. If I can get past the disappoint of where I've let myself get to and into the positive realm and start to see some result, it would make things easier from there on out! There are some family genetics working against me so I can't help the bad guys out by letting my shape get away from me. The more in shape I can maintain, the more at bay I can keep those genes.
It's all good though, this negative realization has helped me focus on another resolution as well, #4. I got a little more serious about picking out my spring marathon and now have it narrowed down to 2 options - Lawrence, KS and Lincoln, NE. They are 2 weeks apart so depending on how my training goes these first 2 months will probably determine which one I'll do. Hopefully it'll be KS though. That's the earlier one so it'll give me more time in-between events so I don't suffer from burn-out like I did last season by scheduling things too close together. I'm not going to worry about my results during this spring marathon though. I know I won't be at my peak physical best so I can't expect to set a PR or anything. I'll just go out there to enjoy it and cross another state off the list. Hopefully, if I can find my working out mojo again, my fall marathon (IA) will test that PR.
I was talking today with someone about another resolution. Mainly hers, but it got me thinking about mine too, #3, and what I want out of it. There are definitely some different views out there about dating and what it's all about. I think I need to do some inner searching on who I'm looking for and how to go about finding her. It's not too hard to draw the conclusion that I haven't done it right yet considering I'm 41 and single.